I Don't Understand

I don't understand
How can you just pretend,
Appear unfazed by the thought of me being broken,
Of me not being yours?
I want to scream!
I don't understand
Why we're where we are,
And how you look so together,
While I'm torn at the threads?
I don't understand
When we kissed you never let go,
But now its like it never happened,
Do I not exist?
I don't understand
If you didn't want me, why did you kiss me,
Why did you say all the things I wanted to hear,
Why did you leave?
I want to scream!
I don't understand!
I fell so hard for you,
I tried to be yours- I risked everything,
But you still left-why?
I don't understand
Why couldn't you tell me why,
Or why I'm so broken inside,
Or do you miss me at all?
I don't understand
How could I love you,
When I'm with someone else,
Or why am I wanting you so badly?
I want to scream..
I don't understand
Why I'm so alone without you,
Why I'm so scared to breathe,
Why you're not here with me saying everything's gonna be okay
I don't understand
Why you're not mine..
When I'm so yours.