Darkest Day

My darkest day has come and past;
Pain will not continue to last
One by one the tears roll down;
Fighting constantly not to drown
Voices in my head persist to scream;
High or low- always extreme
I'm walking amongst a living hell;
Always being told not to dwell
But I'm fighting an internal battle;
It's more than I can handle
Upon my heart, there's all these scars;
All my dreams and all my fears
I have no idea where to begin;
Will this ever be a fight that I'll win?

Identity

Completely trapped-
Boiling inside
Agony, bloodcurdling screams
Shredded -
Endless knots;  unable to come apart
Pounding throughout my veins
Tearing my skin-
Anger,  disgust and hatred grip my thoughts
Wretching- my heart
Incapable of release;  save me!
Voices scream- no escape
Vines wrap my body,
Taking me for their own
Stripped-of my identity
Changes;  endlessly
Obstacles never overcome
No voice of reason
Just me, myself and I-
... an eternal battle

Belle

My pretty girl,
You've waked many a mile alongside me
Caught all the tears I shed;
Purred to let me know you were content
Your paw print is imprinted upon my heart
Special is what you are,
I'll never forget your scent;
The touch of your fur
Or the way you'd nudge your head
You've taken a piece of my heart-
Wherever you've gone,
Run wild and free
I still feel your soul;
For it's inside my heart.

I love you Belley-Boo ♡

12-05-14

Only you can be you

Beauty isn't a size
Confidence is sexy:
Let that smile shine through
You're perfect-
Laugh without care
Be the way you want
Because by being you;
He'll fall in love with you.

Burnt

Every now and then;
You bleed into my mind
I feel disconnected
I'm left with these memories-
Which were real?  Which were lies?
It feels no time has past;
Standing still
Never did I think I'd be here-
Loved you once, hate you now
I hope you burned the bridge;
That you have to cross tomorrow
When you find your way,
I won't be here waiting.

Check Mate

Series of emotions
High or low,
No medium ground
Entrapped within-
Endless thoughts
Over analyzing every move
Before you Check Mate;
Let me take your King.

Beckoning

Certain days;
Freer than others
Catch and release
Black and white;
Grey area-absent
Silent screams
Suppress the urge-
I want to surrender
Voice of reason: FIGHT
My skin tingles-
As the blade beckons
STOP!
I crave every inch
Take control: toss it
I can't give in anymore.

Sweet Release

The cold sharpness of a blade  -
Treads along the softness of my skin
Sends shivers down my spine
My body anticipates what's next to come;
To see the blood bubble up against the broken skin-
Seep over and roll one by one;
And then the tears begin to flow;
Finally, the sweet release I've  been missing for so long
The scar of an old cut- nothing but a memory
It was all I need to break the dam I've held for so long
You are still written in the scars on my heart;
Reality is a harsh wakeup call,
But one day; like all scars,  I will heal.

Bittersweet

Time's moving on,
I've gotta move along...
It's time to erase your face-
You've been here for far too long,
It's a bittersweet goodbye.

Stuck on replay

I'll keep on writing-
While you play your old song and dance;
The moment's past and it's been long gone,
So say goodbye to my pretty face

Concealed

Such frailty for the weak,
You've succumbed to your worst feat;
You're not who I thought you were-
The door's deadbolted and key; tossed.

Puppet Master 2.0

Never ending circle,
Beyond my control; intoxicated
Stories begin to unfold; reality?
Dominant versus submissive,
Bending my will; prevailed
Like a moth to flame,
Strung along to dance; a puppeteer
You have won this round,
But I will dominate; I promise.