About Me

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I don't have very many dreams or goals that most people have, some that are definitely unreachable, but worth striving for. Every now and then I write a story in my head or pen a poem down. The only way I know how to express myself through words is through my writing.

Friday, February 27, 2015

Manic Mode

 Irrational-
All these thoughts consume me
Overreacting;
I let my insecurities best me
High and low;
No middle ground-
I'm stuck in stasis
My chest constricts 
And my mind screams out loud;
Silence echoes round the room
My emotions shut down,
My face: unreadable 
Until the dam breaks-
One by one the tears roll down
My heart heavy;
And I'm shattered all over again
Your eyes alone-
Brings me back to reality
I'm easily lost amongst your kisses
All these dreams and all these fears
Wash away when I feel you near;
My heartbeat quickens
And my thoughts calm the waters
My face radiates a smile from ear-to-ear
Manic Mode.



Saturday, February 7, 2015

Justin

I fell for your thoughts,
And the way you said my name-
You make me feel amazing

I want to be inside your mind,
To hear every thought and desire-
All your fears and all your dreams

I want you,
To see the way you look at me-
And to feel the way I feel about you

My favorite moment with you,
Just lying still in bed-
Running my fingers along your back

I love the way you smile,
That silly smirk-
And the way I drive you crazy

I'm falling hard,
I want you-
Always.




Monday, January 19, 2015

Yours for the taking

I've been walking around; stumbling 
With my head in the clouds
For the longest time I've been crumbling,
And then there you were; 
Standing out in the crowds
All it took was one smile-
Before I began to fall
Made everything else worthwhile
You can be my wrecking ball;
Break me over and over
Tear down all the walls
You've won me over-
Baby, you can have it all;
You can have my heart and my body
But best of all you can have my mind-
I'm all yours for the taking.

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Darkest Day

My darkest day has come and past;
Pain will not continue to last
One by one the tears roll down;
Fighting constantly not to drown
Voices in my head persist to scream;
High or low- always extreme
I'm walking amongst a living hell;
Always being told not to dwell
But I'm fighting an internal battle;
It's more than I can handle
Upon my heart, there's all these scars;
All my dreams and all my fears
I have no idea where to begin;
Will this ever be a fight that I'll win?

Identity

Completely trapped-
Boiling inside
Agony, bloodcurdling screams
Shredded -
Endless knots;  unable to come apart
Pounding throughout my veins
Tearing my skin-
Anger,  disgust and hatred grip my thoughts
Wretching- my heart
Incapable of release;  save me!
Voices scream- no escape
Vines wrap my body,
Taking me for their own
Stripped-of my identity
Changes;  endlessly
Obstacles never overcome
No voice of reason
Just me, myself and I-
... an eternal battle

Belle

My pretty girl,
You've waked many a mile alongside me
Caught all the tears I shed;
Purred to let me know you were content
Your paw print is imprinted upon my heart
Special is what you are,
I'll never forget your scent;
The touch of your fur
Or the way you'd nudge your head
You've taken a piece of my heart-
Wherever you've gone,
Run wild and free
I still feel your soul;
For it's inside my heart.

I love you Belley-Boo ♡

12-05-14

Monday, December 1, 2014

Only you can be you

Beauty isn't a size
Confidence is sexy:
Let that smile shine through
You're perfect-
Laugh without care
Be the way you want
Because by being you;
He'll fall in love with you.