Mirrored

Each movement mirrored
Side way glance cloud my judgment
Every word is a statement;
Every emotion overwhelm
Constant waves of pain
Washes over me swiftly again and again
I tell you this confidently
This isn't who I am
I'm nothing compared to them;
Extreme highs and extreme lows
That's the way the wind blows,
The creek ripples and that's the way the world goes
Everything is always mirrored,
Shown in the past and future, set on replay
Mirrored.

Incapable

Something within consumes me
Burns and screams out silent cries
Torn apart from limbs to thoughts
Words cuts and bleeds through
Hatred run through my veins
Warping my thoughts into overdrive
Panic attacks come frequently
Unable to hold back
One of these days it'll overcome
I'll fall into the void you've left me in
My hands are tied,
Incapable of freeing, incapable of change
Stuck in this mindless stature
Ripping away at every other emotion I've got
Until nothing's left
I'll begin to rip everyone else apart
All that's left of my sanity
Has deteriorated into this-
Cold and sociopathic.
Unsaveable.

Don't.

I thought I knew you.
I thought I knew the truth
Used to be able to tell when you lie
Knew when you weren't okay and about to cry
Thoughts of your smiles and the way you looked
Nothing left but broken piles of memories
Never thought I'd see the day where I just don't care
Truth is, you took all that I had to bare
You say you know me
But you really don't even know me at all
You've finally got what you wanted
I don't want to love you
I don't care at all.