Tainted

My heart is tainted
Rage consumed me
Hate is the only thing acquainted
All that's left of me to be
Feeling the hollow void
Hatred strengthens
Every happy thought destroyed
The intensity of pain lengthens
Jealousy devours the heart
Vulnerable and full of weakness
The desire to tear apart
Full of her deceptiveness
Realizing truths and dreams will never meet
My curtain has closed
On the last thing that ever made me complete
The truth of her heart came exposed
Turned her back on love
No more sunrises for me
Wishing it was her I was free of
Sunsets sigh my relief of the end of another day
The darkness is my only friend

I hate you

I hate you,
Point blank, the answer's simple
Once upon a time I loved you
Thought you were the sun in my darkness
The flame of her hair caught my attraction
To her, my love seemed inferior
Never enough, always wanting more
You are the shadow that follows my every move
Every thought and every breath
Every memory of the brushes of her lips
Reminds me of how I'm nothing to her
Not even a thought wasted
No more sunrises
Anger flames inside
You love her
I hate you.

i should have known better

When you said forever and ever
I should have known better
Why aren't you here
I'm all alone
Forever means nothing now
Lost my faith in faerie-tales
No happy ever after
your forever seems so long ago
I should have known better
Why did I allow myself to fall
Forever means nothing
I'm so alone...
I should have known all along
That your forever was bound to end
I should have known better
Then maybe I wouldn't be such a mess..

Through.

The feeling of love is replaced
Left with pure hate and regret
Out of everything I've ever faced
I wish it's you I could forget
Wishing I meant something to you
Left with nothing but thoughts
I'm finally through with you
Set you free and finally see
For who you are
Today, I shall begin to finally feel
Escaping the firm grasps of your manipulation
I'm through with you.

Desire

My heart enclosed;
Truth of my feelings exposed
Dwelling upon the past
Seeking for a love that will last
Insecurities write my face
Wanting things to fall into place
Continuous pondering of what our fate will come to be
The heart desires to be with thee
Hoping our paths will intertwine
In truth and secrets I shall confide
Somehow it will always end with you and me

Imagine,

Let's Imagine,
Never breathing in the same air as you again
Let's Imagine,
Never hearing the sound of your voice
Let's Imagine,
Never feeling your arms around me again
Let's Imagine,
Never knowing the complete truth
Let's Imagine,
Never talking to you again
Let's Imagine,
Never being yours
Let's Imagine,
Never having someone give you their all
Let's Imagine,
Never feeling alive again
Let's Imagine,
Me walking away
Let's Imagine,
Me cutting you out of my life
Let's Imagine,
Me having the last word
Let's Imagine,
Me finding the strength in myself to tell you who I really think you are
Let's Imagine,
Me telling you that I don't need you
Let's Imagine,
Me giving up on you
Let's Imagine,
Me picking up the pieces of my heart
Let's Imagine,
Me saying that it's all really over
Let's Imagine,
The end of us.

Don't lie

Don't talk about the feelings that aren't really there,
Don't lead me on if you don't really want me,
Why do you say what I want to hear and then break my heart?
Don't say things that you don't really mean,
Why look at me in the eye when all you do is lie?
Don't say hello if you really mean goodbye,
Don't say you love me if you're going to walk away

Unreachable, Lost, Failed

Hiding behind masks of disguise
Tired of her lying words
Dancing around the truth
Holding back the tears
Although stabbing pains sears
Knowing that she knows
Makes it all nearly unbearable to endure
Masking a disguise is nearly impossible
The truth is written upon my face
Unable to hide
Wanting to hold onto the past
Unreachable, lost, failed
I'm losing it.

She's gonna wish she was a better man

I'm right where I want to be
All alone and numb
She's in another world
Nobody but me
Truth is, she isn't gonna come
Someday she's gonna wish she was a better man
Promises don't mean anything
I kissed her and then she ran
Tried to keep with a ring
But if she knew just how it feels
To get everything destroyed
She's gonna wish she was a better man
She's still everything I ever wanted
But she ran
Now I'm right where I want to be
And someday she's gonna wish she was a better man

I wish she knew

I wish she knew,
That it was all her
I wish she knew,
That I wish she was mine
I wish she knew,
That I wish she wasn't her's
I wish she knew,
That I tear myself apart
I wish she knew,
That I need her
I wish she knew,
That she is perfect
I wish she knew,
I'd die to keep her happy
I wish she knew,
That I wish to be her's

I'll break your heart

I'll break your heart
Take me deep inside
I'll crumble the walls
I'll pick you apart
We will collide
Promises of no pain will befall
I'll try to be sweet
Hold you close til you feel you belong
Open up your world that was once so dark
Breathe you in and make you complete
Break you down and make you strong
With your heart, you embarked
Hold onto you and you hold onto me
Whisper all your secrets away
Make you feel so alive
Just let us be
Don't lead us astray
You will revive
I'll break your heart
Only to bring you back
You make me so complete
Broke my heart into cracks
You make it so sweet
I'll break your heart

Trapped

Smothered in lies
Insanity circulates
Truthfulness cause pain
Breathing in and out
Pure hatred inflames
Cries of freedom never reached
Burning in the pits of darkness
Trapped inside reality
Cruelness and broken
All alone

Huntress

Blood lust
Closing in
Sounds fade
Giving in
Eyes turn to slits
Sense of smell overdrives
Canine teeth begin to lengthen
Venom sires in the mouth
Excitement surges
Watching every move
Every pulse
Listening for the shaken breaths
Remembering every taste
The need to take
Closing in on the prey
Hearing the heartbeat and whimpers of "Jade"
Shock overwhelm the body
Reality comes back to the senses
Staggering back into the tree
The night comes back into vision
Gasping for air
Looking into the eyes of her prey
Begging and scared
Realizes she must disappear,
The huntress falls victim to her prey

Alone

I think I've always known
This is the way it has to go
Blood of our love spilled
Her dreams fulfilled
She's got the love she's always wanted
Whilst I'm all alone
She's meant to walk alongside someone
Where I'm meant to roam on my own
One way or another
It's the way it's meant to be

Eclipse

Our paths no longer intertwined
Everything that was ever said
Has taken a toll upon my heart
Every word from her lips bled
To in which we part
Bloodied thoughts linger upon my lips
Luscious touches craved
Compare thee to a crimson eclipse
Our true love deprived
Feelings are left undefined

Favorite mistake; another regret

Unwanted, unbearable
Undefined, unknown

Knowing the truth
Holding back with everything I've got
She loves me, not
Love is too complex

Full of pent up anger
Wanting to say what's on my mind
Wishing I could rewind
Step up and do what I really want

I had the chance but I let the moment go
Could have given myself my favorite mistake
And your biggest regret
In truth, we both know

Repressing love is like pent up anger
Holding back when it's bound to burst
Fell in love headfirst
Leaving myself to be completely broken

My biggest regret
Not taking the moment
To show you how much I really miss you
You're impossible to forget

Wanting to thrash out
Get drunk and forget everything there is
To be unable to feel
Now I'm full of doubt and without
Wishing that I had kissed you

But I held back
Sobriety is easier when I'm either happy or hurting
Because for once I felt something even if it was a crack
My heart already shattered each little piece there is
Felt apathetic for far too long
So empty and so bleak

I crave pain just to feel
All I want is to feel you again even through heartbreak
Never ending and never yours
Maybe someday I'll wake up and realize
That maybe, just maybe I'll move on
That maybe I will be okay

Maybe you'll be mine again
Because I'm always yours
You're my favorite mistake
Just don't let it be another regret

Contrast

Simple thoughts
Complex outcomes
She wanders
Moonlight shone against her pearly white skin
Leaving such contrast in the night
Clutching the railing
Looking below at the billowy sea
Stifled cries
She climbs and jumps
In sorrow she drowns
How can something so beautiful not want to exist?

Explore

No strings attached
Pure lust
Emotions override, scratched
Bodies begin to thrust
Windows steams
Touches and twirls
Orgasmic screams
Three sexy girls
Bodies sweat
Craving for more
She's completely wet
Wanting to explore
I want you now.

At Mortality's End

Afraid of not being
The dark void grows
Unable to foresee
Unknown paths that we chose
To wander along
Every dawn is a new day
Have to find strength and be strong
Wishing immortality existed so we can stay
Each sunset is the end of a day
Approaching mortality's end
Soon I'll have to lay
No more time to pretend
Everyone lies and everyone dies
Not enough time for cries
For mortality's end is inevitable.

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Blackberry

I take it everywhere I go,
Sleep with it cradling in my hand
Vibrations and the light blinks
I see that one text from the one I love
Skins and different colors
It's so unique, it's me
So easy to use and so smooth
When I get a call, my favorite tone plays
The camera goes click, click
Saves over 1000 pictures that I love
I love my blackberry
It's my connection to the one I love

Here to stay

You'll always be insatiable
Cause you know she's not the one you really want
To you I'm so irresistible
Not gonna flaunt

You don't have what it takes
You can't be without her
Just can't break what you gotta break
Do whatever you prefer

Cause baby I'm not going anywhere
You've got me right where you want me
Though I've gotta tell ya, I don't share
I'll be whatever you want me to be

Just gotta make the first play
Then I'll be here to stay

Lifesavers

Twist your tongue around
Make a loop
Lick and swirl
Sucking into the center
Juicy flavors on the tip of your tongue
Lifesavers.

I'm inlove with a girl

Blue eyes
Fair skinned
Not a word escapes her lips
Thoughts go unread
Time passes without a breath
Her face unreadable
She's so unreachable
I wanna get inside
Her heart and her mind
Eyes searching, full of wonder
Her laughs sing a musical tune
She drives me crazy
She's untouchable
One look is all it takes
She's worth the second glance
She's so irresistible
I lose my breath
And every thought scrambles through my mind
I'm in love with a girl.

You don't care, you don't wanna cry

Everything about you is so weak
Your eyes are smiling but your soul is dead
You lay awake, try to get her out of your head
You've got a stubborn streak
Say you don't care, you don't wanna cry
But all you do is lie
You think everything you do is sleek
Hide under a mask of disguise
You're just full of goodbyes
Your words are so bleak
Searching for reasons to go on
Everything that was you is gone
Left a mark upon my cheek
You're still here but you're not mine
It's never going to be fine
Everything about you is so weak

Bye pretty lady

Bye pretty lady,
I think about you day and night
Everything about you is so nice
Don't be so shady
Tell me what you like
You know you wanna talk a bit
You just gotta admit
Maybe I'll tell you who I like
Bye pretty lady,
You know who I'll dream about tonight

Addiction

Self inflicted
One more thing I'm addicted
Broken words flow from the mouth
Leading the heart and soul south
Feeling apathetic
Whilst she be apologetic
Or completely unaware
Full of despair
Lies and vindication
But also full of temptation
Quick to desire but not to regret
Admiring her beautiful silhouette
I'd continue to be self inflicted
She's one more thing I'm addicted
Unable to give up and always giving in
The inevitable win
She has me intoxicated
Addiction accelerated
I'm her's.

What you mean to me

Never wanna say what you mean to me
Never wanna run
Never wanna leave
Cause you're the biggest part of me
You complete me
You're the best thing about me
Frightened to believe
That you're not even mine
Wanna feel alive
Feel the ground beneath me
Before it gets taken out from under me
Feeling stuck
Searching for a way to get out
Turn around and shut down
Never telling you what I wanna say to you
Never wanna run from you
Never wanna leave you
But I can't say what you mean to me

To be a kid

Summer breeze,
So carefree
Skinned knees
Big squeezes
Living in the sunshine
Hands intertwined
Skipping ropes
Full of dreams and hope
Oh, just to be a kid again.