About Me

My photo
I don't have very many dreams or goals that most people have, some that are definitely unreachable, but worth striving for. Every now and then I write a story in my head or pen a poem down. The only way I know how to express myself through words is through my writing.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Let go

I keep on telling myself I'll be okay
But my heart tells me otherwise
All the tears that may fall,
At least I know I've given my all
Countless times have known of my continuous pleas
I've tried to stand on my own two feet
But that's as far I've ever gotten
Accomplishments or not,
It may have all been time and effort wasted
Although society is faltering,
But so am I, and so are you
I've given out so many chances
And ask for some in return
But I've learned you onlu live once,
So one chance or none at all,
You're all I've got
My only chance at happiness;
I've got to let go.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Astonish

Step back and take a look at the world as a whole
Full of nature and beauty in its own entirety
Never mind how the human race has dug its hole
A breach in its own society
It once was a full force of naturalism
Without its corporate and capitalist world
Within religion, the world retaliates into antagonism
Society is faltering on its own newborn legs
Incapable of rising to morals and beliefs
They suffer from greed, selfishness and drown in hate
Every generation's contribution to the world only lessens briefly
Fighting over whether the war's right or wrong, or if being gay is such sin
Would it all matter once one reaches heaven's gates
All the hate and immoralities that one achieved,
Would the day come where we'd all be relieved
Away from the center of manipulations and destruction
Would we ever return to the simplistic world that was once ideal
Escape the reality of success and seduction
We'd circle the world to find what's real
Then somehow the world will eventually heal
Spirituality replaces religious traits
Is this what have become of our fate
Between what's right and what's wrong,
Does it matter to where it ends down to the line
The world's not ours to take
We're left to grasp our reality and intertwine
Force ourselves to wake
See the world
See the world for what its become and what it once was
Our fate is what we make
We are who we made ourselves
We've only got to submit
To reality we've succumbed,
The only true sacrifice was our soul

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Mr. Bonkers #2


Mr.Bonkers
Has a big honker
Brown spots cover his body
He's my somebody
He went away for a while
I missed him but his smile is always worthwhile
He's my lovely giraffe
A figment etched in my mind
He never fails to make me laugh
He's always there even if I leave him behind
He's my Mr.Bonkers

I scared- by the lovely Amber *insider*

*bright lights fill the room
a quick shut of the eyes
doesnt seem to leave
in pitch black, theres nothing i can do
the light switch is oh so far
there are no lighters or candles
so i must keep my eyes shut..
and chant.. " i scared"
suddenly, an angel heard my preyer
bright light fills the room
i am happy once again

Reflection

Slightly oval, long and lean shaped
Small, inviting, smoothly lined lips
Slender, rosy cheeks
Alluring Greenish blue eyes
Small sized nose with a slight bump
Feminine chin
Looking strikingly back at me
Emotions begin to surface
Hand pressed against the glass
Sadness appear in the eyes
Her laughter lines are drawn into a frown
Tracing my fingers along her cheek, down to her chin
Anger hits instantly
Something inside bursts
Tears begin to flow
Rage and shame pour out of her eyes
The girl disappears
Nothing left but a wall
Bleeding knuckles with shattered glass
I hate my reflection
Covered in pain
Written upon my face, shown for all to see
It's not me

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Stuck

It should have been us
Walking hand in hand
Everything and nothing less
But I understand
I've been here once or twice before
Familiar feelings surface
Final shards of the heart tore
With a single embrace,
I've accepted death
Took a step or two backward
Sighed the last breath
I took a step forward
There's a storm coming
And I'm lost behind
I can feel myself becoming
More and more entwined
Wishing to find some escape
There's only one way left
To find a single reason, the shape
Of reality and of truth
It should have been us
I'm stuck.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Transformation of a sensation

Transformation
Such a sensation
She's my temptation
She's got my love
The looks I'd never dream of
She's the one I'm unworthy of
I should have been the one
But it's already begun
She's already done
She's gone
I'm withdrawn
Shes so pretty and so brawn
So unexpected
I wish we were still connected
Her words are so affected
I'm so rejected
She's still the one I want
She's got it all to flaunt
Memories of her, they will haunt
She's my temptation
Such a sensation
Transformation

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Incomplete

Not tonight, Not tomorrow
I'd live in sorrow
Maybe never, Maybe someday
I know I'll be okay, Maybe not today
Just a chance, Just a dream
Things are never the way it seems
Live your life, Live your heart
Tear me apart
You've got me, You've got you
Somehow we'll get through
Broken dreams, Broken words
The voices will be heard
Just breathe, Just live
Just love.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Enchantress

Breathe a whisper upon her lips
Slightly graze at the nape of her neck
A single look into her alluring eyes caused me to slip
The moment in its own entirety, caused heartache and wreck
Her trusting gaze had turned to hate
Losing such control when I had promised I'd never harm
Upon my shoulders, piled upon of heavy weight
Fighting the urge to lure her with charm
The lengthened bond had broken
Heart heavy with hurt and rage
Such final words were left unspoken
From the enchanted creek, had I awaken
Allured from the moonlit reflections, darkness had overtaken
Entrancing and left breathless
Awaiting for the dark angel to wander through the trees and take my hand