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I don't have very many dreams or goals that most people have, some that are definitely unreachable, but worth striving for. Every now and then I write a story in my head or pen a poem down. The only way I know how to express myself through words is through my writing.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Perfect Disguise. December 17th, 2009

I think she knows
She's not a stupid girl,
I'm sure she sees the way my face falls
Every single time I hear her name
Or when she walks past without a glance
Without a chance-
I think she knows,
How can she not?
I close my eyes and wish with all my might
That I won't forget
I wish you'd put up more of a fight
I paint the perfect mask of complexion,
My eyes are smiling while I'm screaming inside
I could never handle the rejection
Mind apart and souls divide
I think she knows
When I turn to say I'll be alright
I keep my voice steady but my body says something else
I'll shake and she'll try to hold me tight
But I'll do what I always do- push her away
I think she knows
I can't handle this anymore
Every word out of my mouth is trite
Why am I the one she chose to ignore?
I'll take a breather- just for tonight
I think she knows
She knows-
I'll break myself before I'll break her heart
Drinking just to forget
I just can't tear myself apart
I won't do anything I'll regret
I think she knows
She definitely knows-
I'm falling apart one by one
My mask of disguise crumbling away
I've already begun to coming undone
Everything's out for me to portray
I think she knows
That I miss you.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item



Definitely my blackberry. I'd say my kitties but they're not items lol.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Lifeline

I wish I could tell you exactly what's on my mind
I close my eyes to escape
But thoughts keep flooding in
I wish I could describe the feelings I get
Extreme highs and extreme lows
With you, I'm sky high
But when I come down, I crash so hard
Exhausted from three switches
Happy, sad, mad
Weren't these supposed to be balanced out?
Good days, bad days
I hold on tight
But sometimes its got a stronger grip
Tears is my escape
Anger is my defense
Love is my rescue
I get reeled back in
Only to slip again
Help me figure this out,
Save me from me.

A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day



I chose Britney Spears because she's got a hard life to live. With her money & constantly being in the spotlight wherever she goes... she's one hell of a strong woman! I've grown up listening to her music, loved every single song she had. Believed she'd get better and she has. She's been through hell and back. I'd trade places for a day to see how much it takes, if I can endure as much as she has. And to give her some low-key get away for a day lol.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Love song

I scream, you scream
Push comes to grips
Tighter, closer
I bite, you moan
I go deeper, you orgasm
We flip, you make me scream
Nails dig in, I orgasm
And we dance.

Day 05: A picture of your favorite memory



This was a really great night aside from Angie's phone breaking. We zoned out and had a blast in her car. <3

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Day 04 : A picture of your night


This is after we showed up to Nikki's halloween/bday party. I dressed up as a Toronto Fan, and Angie dressed up as a Montreal fan. We didn't stay long cause I work tomorrow at 8.. yay. It was fun otherwise! <3

Friday, October 15, 2010

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest



This picture was at Acadia University for prom. One of our most proudest moments because we were so excited to have finally graduate and we dreamed about prom forever. Hard to believe it's been over three years since then. Robyn was my best friend throughout middle school til High school. I miss the days where it'd be just us and she was the girl I ran to for whatever I was upset or excited about. She knew me better than anyone else did. I love her, she's always gonna be one of my best friends <3 She's my Chickadee and I'm Twinkle Bear.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Day one: 10 facts about me



1. I'm loud and deaf
2. I'm honest
3. I love writing
4. I fight for what I believe in
5. I'm bisexual & I love my life
6. Blockbuster & pepsi are my weaknesses
7. The only season I like is summer
8. I love my girl, best friends & brother and sisters
9. My thoughts are never ending
10. I'm passionate, extreme, overprotective but that's what makes me, me

30 Day Picture Challenge

Alright, so there's this challenge thing that I thought I'd do everyday for a month. I have to post a picture each day and it has to mean something. Wish me luck...
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Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show
Day 04 - A picture of your night
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate
Day 12 - A picture of something you love
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity
Day 19 - A picture and a letter
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change
Day 25 - A picture of your day
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss