Never ending cycle

Hidden feelings
Agonizing heart aches as she walks by
One glance, no looking back
Put the past in the past
Shed a single tear
But it does not matter
I'd walk away from this if I could
Never experience the love she gave
Or the heartache as she ripped away
But yet here I stand
Unable to truly tear myself away
But I do it for another day
The cycle repeats tomorrow,
Never ending.

My heart's got a memory

My heart's got a memory
Splattered all over pages
Crooked smiles and love in the eyes of yours
Pounding down on the pavement
You want me gone
But my heart's there to stay
I could dwell on what's been done
Let the rain drown me
But even then my heart's still got a memory
I'd be gone because you want me to be
But I'm still dreaming
I can see your face in my reflection
I go to touch it
But you're gone...
My heart's got a memory
I'm on the road to no where in particular
I may be gone
But even then my heart's still got a memory
My heart's got a memory...

full moon

Full moon's out tonight
I'm so senseless
Relentless.
I've lost my nerve
Over confidence
Nothing's gonna get me tonight
Feel your breath on my neck
Reach for the bite
But then I turn to run
Losing sense of gravity
So breathless
Must be the moon tonight
Gotta be careless
But there's something
Something about you that makes it alright
Forget the escape
Embrace
I've lost all sense of reality
But its okay,
Its the moon tonight

Lonely

With the way the wind blows,
Veiny fingers stretch toward the sky
Water ripples in circlets
Air crisp with the taste of rain
A lone path foreshadows your future
Breathe a sigh of lonely.

Succubus

Cold-hearted
Full of flaws,
Leading boys on
Whispering thoughts into their heads
"I like you"
Playing flirtatiously
Losing interest as theirs begin to build
Senseless play things
Brushing them off and picking up another
The cycle begin and end the same way
Flawlessly, the answer's always been the same
She's it.

*unrelated*

3 AM

Panic.
I sit on the edge of my bed weeping
My breathing falters
Quickens and weakens
Thoughts creep into my head
I can't.
I run.
Cold air whip at my wet cheeks
Swinging idling by the lone swing that's still
You should be there.
Your hand in mine.
Emptiness fill the void
Memories batter my heart
Misery should not come from you
I was yours.
To love and to break.
But completely yours
There is no escape
No comparisons
Lost in this moment
Knowing nothing will change
This is me without you.
The lone swing begin to swing.

Hidden

Locked in a cage of hidden truths
Barred from believing in the supernatural
Withholding every thought, every emotion
Denying your true being
States of hypocrisy arise
Chained between what is real and what is not
Unlike a masochistic lion, resist the urge to fight
Cower in fear of being turned against
But shed whatever sanity that's left
Release whatever rage that's been built inside
Break free of the manacles and roar
Accept your true beauty and be proud
No chains of lies
Only the truth can be seen through glamor
Credendo Vides: By believing, one sees
Glamor is in truth itself
Free yourself

State of Mind

Stasis, everything about you sucks me in
Stasis, there is no room for escape
Stasis, the only place we belong
Stasis, lost in your memories
Stasis, stuck in the past- only this time I'm alone
Stasis, the distance between us isn't right
Stasis, the present does not exist
Stasis, no one left but us
Stasis, completely alone in this state of mind
Stasis, worlds of wonder
Stasis, I do not exist

Beauty unconcealed

All along have I known
The truth hidden in your words
But lies now expose to what is really shown
The truth is often unheard
Lies form parts of truth
Paths intertwined of hate
Beauty shed in its' own true glory
To this, we all relate
We grasp onto what we can hold
Let go of what we can live without
Of everyone but ourselves
Truth itself is beauty,
But unconcealed by the ugliness of lies.

Best friends

Best friends.
Capable of reading and knowing how and why they're feeling a certain way
Always wanting to keep them laughing
Eyes tell secrets that no one else can understand
Their hands always fit in yours when you need them the most
When heart break happens,
They're there with movies and words of encouragement
And their silly insiders of "turds" and "Pink Birdy's"
Being completely yourself around
Capable of falling asleep curled up beside them
Without worries of the occasional nightmares
They're there to hand you your drinks
And make fun of every mistake you do
They cry along with you when you're hurt
A best friend isn't a title,
It's a promise.

Existence

Time shifted-
I'm here and you're there
All that was left between had drifted
Nothing could break the tension that's left in the air
Silent words scream from my heart to yours
Yet, a response is never returned
I could have screamed and begged,
But words wouldn't have been heard
Nothing changes in the end
One thing in reality that I cannot escape or pretend,
We don't exist.

Widow's Walk

She stands
The salty air kisses her lips
As it whips through her hair,
She closes her eyes
And tilts her chin upward toward the sky
The sound of waves crashing; thunders in her ears
Splashes of icy rain drops pierce her face
Mixed with warm tears- they drip down the nape of her neck
She shivers,
Awaiting at widow's walk
She's forever alone,
At one with the world
She jumps.

Stasis

I wake up
Vast full of emptiness
And all I've got to show for it is a tear stained face
Don't tell me I never did try
You don't even know how hard it is
Scream at me- What do you want from me?
I lay in stasis,
Wishing I could be the apathetic bitch that you see me as
Spiraling into a gyre
Straight into rock bottom,
In my hand holds shattered glass
In the poor comparison that is my heart,
A pool of blood begin to form
Slipping into a state of memories,
I lay in stasis for you
No chance of escape,
No chance of return,
I lay in stasis.

Tempo

I sit here trying to capture the moment passed
I grasp onto any excuse I can
To keep you in my head
Every thought I have
I should push out but I cannot let go
Every time that we talk
My heart dance to a beat of its own
Every little thing disappears
The tempo increases just for a moment
The skies turn blue and I'm finally capable of breathing
The air- never sweeter, is delicious with you around
But I run out of time and it's hard to get through
I want to tell you the truth,
The truth about what you mean to me
It's all behind closed doors
Waiting to be all yours
Flat-lining until you resuscitate me
From my heart to yours,
The tempo shall increase when you're around
Spiking every so often as long as we talk
My heart survives because of you.

The Truth

I've come to realize that I'm not okay
I've come to realize that you can't handle my honesty
I've come to realize that I'm tangled up in someone that I can't let go
I've come to realize that I'm falling for you
I've come to realize that I'm not at all emotionally stable
I've come to realize that I have panic attacks daily
I've come to realize that I can't handle too much emotions at once
I've come to realize that I don't have as much patience as I used to
I've come to realize that I tend to flirt with so many people without meaning to
I've come to realize that I'm still broken but mending
I've come to realize that I'd do anything for my friends
I've come to realize that I cannot lie
I've come to realize that I have trust issues
I've come to realize that I let people walk over me because I don't want them upset
I've come to realize that I need to change and accept who I am
I've come to realize that I need myself.