Fast and slow to barely beating at all.

Head games,
Emotions overwhelm
Commit or not to commit,
To hold on or to let go
Living in a dream but reality hits harder
Euphoria turns into depression
Heart beats fast and slow to-
Almost barely beating at all
Always the first to begin;
And the last to end
It takes two, not one;
One person can't hold it all together
Full of everything to barely anything at all
Giving up hope,
Releasing all expectations and freeing the disappointments;
Shielding my heart
But still holding on-
For as long as you want me.