Hourglass

Watch minutes turn into hours,
and hours into days then into weeks.
Time goes by wasted
Every last breath taken
was merely a mistake upon my part.
Every thought, every word spoken
meant more than what was said.
Never fully there- always from a distant
Trying to reach but nothing is there.
Deep into my essence-
happiness shows, but darkness grows
Nothing to hold onto; not even your hand
Drowning in the flames of misery,
Burning in the pool of your being
Hiding every thought, every mistake
Trying to understand; just why...
Shuddering chests, wheezing breaths
Behind every smile is a bleeding tear
Cracked hearts never mend,
Broken is what I'll always be