Deserted

Skies dark with angry clouds
Rain pounding pavement like fists
Thunder cracks as a whip
Bloodcurdling scream echoes
The street deserted
You are alone.

Fast Cars and Shooting Stars

Have you ever wondered;
Just how you're supposed to die?

Head on collision
Drunk or high
Your fault or mine

Accidental or suicide
Maybe by a ravenous murderer
Tied up and ripped apart
Bloodied from lust

Or by plain stupidity
Playing dares that went too far
Driving fast cars
Deer in the headlights
Maybe you just didn't care

Have you ever wondered;
Just what song they'll play?

Will they cry
Or laugh while reminiscing
Turn heads in shame

Will you be lain as a porcelain doll-
For all to see
Your hair all straight and pretty
Wearing your best clothes

Hoping people will cry
Remember you at your best
Will your memories-
Carry on
Forever in their hearts

Have you ever wondered;
Just what happens when you die?

Will you dance on moon beams
Fly amongst shooting stars
Dancing with fallen leaves

Will you stand beside them
Try to hold onto them
Telling them it's alright
Will they feel you near

Would you be happy
Find the light
Know you lived-
To the fullest
Please, remember me.

Where are you?

In my touches
In my kisses
Where are you?

Do you feel me standing by you
Holding your hands
Where are you?

I hear your laughs, do you hear mine
I see your smiles, do you see mine
Are you with me?

In everything, you are there
You are in me
I am with you; brushing away your shadows

We are never alone
I am yours and you mine
I feel you, I want you

I love you.

?

Footsteps pattering down a path
Feet dirtied by mud
Dress torn; caught by branches
Waves crash violently against rocks
Heavy breathing sounds
Where am I?

Sleepless

I wake
In my bed, in the pool of drool
Awaken from dead sleep
Restlessness hang from my shoulders
I sigh.
Fighting to go back to sleep
I look at the clock
My alarm will not sound for awhile
I lay back; watching you
Unable to sleep
So I watch your chest rise and fall
You are so beautiful
I wish I could crawl into your dreams
I can't pinpoint the weirdness I feel;
The dislocation and confusion
But one thing I'm sure of-
I'm right where I want to be.

Gateway

Something's wrong
Voices in my head tells me otherwise
I feel like a little girl lost
Everyone worries
Do I really need to be protected?
Why do I feel stuck?
I pretend nothing gets to me
Hold it all in
Til the gates are torn open
And the words begin to flow
Along with tears streaming down my cheeks
Where is my medium?
Emotions ranging from extreme highs and lows
No shades of grey
Just black and white
I fade in and out
Trying to be invisible
But I'm always found
Reeled back in by true love
My only escape
Release me from my gateway to hell;
Pure hell
Call me back to you
I fight for you
I fight for me
But something's wrong-
With me... I know.

Wonder

I am captivated
Stuck in this bodily shell
Several attempts to free myself
No one knows;

No one asks
Silent cries escape my lips
Will the world ever be lifted-
Off my shoulders

I walk as if nothing's wrong
Throw you off when truth comes out
You wonder why you never noticed
Why I never say the words

Nobody hears me speak
I hang back where there are crowds
I pretend I'm there
But I'm off dreaming

I feel disconnected
Told how to feel or act one way
I must try
But why?

I look at my body
I see all my flaws
Mirroring my every movement,
My eyes tell my worst pain

I'm here but I'm invisible
To myself
My heart knows love
I fight to keep every love I have

Love triumps pain