Crash

Night time driving
With the best friend I could ever have
Music blasting,
Singing along to the lyrics
As loudly as we can
Never thinking anything could be
Better than this
A second's all it takes
To rip that all away
Bright lights,
Speeding cars
Skidding in circles
Smashing into my sides
Glass shattering
Head on steering wheel,
My best friend
Sits broken
Screaming comes,
People freak out
Familiar red lights approach
Sirens are getting a bit too loud for my taste
Opening eyes, as they pull her out
I try to move, but it all hurts
Attempt to scream and cry
But it all goes numb
Looking at the scene,
Stretcher rolls on by,
Zipped up body bags
They said she didn't have a chance
Gasping, saying her name
Not a sound was heard
Rain begin to pound,
Standing in the middle of the street,
Feeling empty as empty can be
Screaming of my name echoes behind me
I turn;
I see the back of my brother
Hunching over someone laying on the pavement
Crying and holding on tight
Begging her to wake up
Paramedics come,
Tells him it's time to let her go
She's already gone
He won't let go
Put my hand on his shoulder,
Telling him it's all gonna be okay
I'm okay now
Tears are shedding
As they pull him away
Heart torn into two,
I love you but I've got to go
They zipped the final bag,
Red lights and sirens fade into the distance,
Messy scene ended
Left all strewn around,
And Broken.

Soar

With her withered wings,
she attempted to fly
Bright eyes gleamed blue
But dimmed with sadness
Fallen to her knees
Weak with grief
Begging the heavens
To allow her to soar once again
Wretched hearts
And shattered souls
Deserve to be mended
And given the chance to be free again
To feel the senses of light and to breathe
Withered wings and all,
She stood for one last chance
One last try
With all her energy
And all her heart
Power driven toward her passion,
Her state of being,
With all her might
She jumped off the cliff;
Full of laughter
So free and light
The weight of pain
Has been lifted off her wings
She remembers the greatness of love,
Of Passion;
She is Soaring.

Shattered Glass

Crimson tears are shedding
I keep on treading
On shattered glass
I'm falling and I'm going down fast
I don't know how all this will last
I'm calling
And I'm falling
Flailing around, searching for something
Grasping at nothing
It's never coming
Broken words are being strewn around
These words are just gonna drown
It's all just gonna pound
Into nothing at all
I'm just shrieking at a wall
I'm just gonna keep screaming
Keep on dreaming
As the tears keep on streaming
The crimson tears are shedding
I keep on treading
On shattered glass
When all I need to do is ask
Hear my broken words

Hang on

Hang on
Listen to the silence
Walk on
Pushing branches out of the way
Light shines on
Stray from the path
Take a chance
Hang on
You're not all alone
Something's there
Walk on
Tripping over stepping stones
Broken down, dead trees
Somethings following
Run on
Scattered noises
It's so dark
Hidden shadows
So quiet
Hang on
You're not all alone
Don't break down
Slow down
It's all gonna be okay
Take a breather,
Walk on
Into the jaws of hell

Rejection

Girl likes boy
Boy likes single life
Girl tries her best
Boy doesn't even notice
Girl becomes blunt
Boy shrugs it off
Girl walks away
Boy moves on
Rejection

Timeless

Stop Lights
Red, Amber, Green
Stop at Green
Rev at Amber
Speed at Red
Anything can happen
In a matter of seconds
The exhilaration of the potential;
Escaping death or causing it
Waiting at crossroads; timeless
Stop at Green
Rev at Amber
Speed at Red
Stop Lights

People always leave

People whisper that they'll always be here
I take a step or two back
And then I realize
Nothing's ever true
They're all spewing lies,
People always leave
Where's the truth?
What are you so afraid of?
Take a chance, be bold
Forget the lies,
Quit protecting yourself
Put yourself out there
But realize this one thing;
Friends can be easily replaced
Because people always leave
People always leave.

Spite

Reached out
Searching for something; anything
Pure blackness surrounds
Swallowed into a pit of darkness
Silent screams make not a sound
Whispers of loneliness approaches
The need to disappear
A hand grabs onto mine
Pulled out into the luminous sun
Unspoken words create the loudest song
I think I'll live to spite myself
Holding on tight

Reaching out

My hand reaches out
She says 'I love you'
It tugs at my heart
The way she smiles
Melts my heart
Wanting to hold on
Crying and being ripped apart
Wishing she was still here
Holding tightly to her picture
As if she was truly here
My arms ache for her's,
my heart is barely beating on
I live day to day,
Just to read her texts,
To get to the weekends-
So I can see her beautiful face
There's nothing to say goodbye to,
Because there isn't anything to say
But I love you.
I just want it all back
To feel you in my arms again,
In my heart
To watch you smile and
see your eyes dance
I love you.

Little boy blue

Little boy blue walked down the narrow strip of city streets
Looking in on a candy store,
Another little boy with his dad buying some treats
Little boy blue turned and began to walk away
Feeling sad and blue,
But the boy and his dad yelled
"Won't you come share the treats with us today?"
Hand-in-hand, they skipped all the way to the park
Little boy blue, not so glum anymore

Wish away

Burning gas,
Full of dust and particles
Colliding in the big night sky
Bursts of fiery energy
Shining brightly for the next hundred years
My star is born

Something everyone wants (by me & Amber)

Intense cravings
Some sweetness and something sticky
Add Whip cream to play,
Licking my lips and
Thirst for more
Burning desire intensifies
Wrap my hands around,
And the hot warmness touches my lips
As the hot liquid pours down my throat
Hot chocolate fulfills my every need.

Truth and Lies

Hear my cries,
Out of all these lies
Bursts of emotion
Battling through my tears
What does it all take
Just to hear a single truth?
Everybody lies and everybody cries
But not everybody tries
I'll say I'll hold my head up high
But I know that's a lie
I'll say I'll try
So that there is at least some truth,
Some form of honesty with no deceit

life is like a puzzle

Life is like a puzzle,
Each thing you do and say
Every thought and every memory
Is intertwined as one
Not every piece fits,
Some are missing
But that's okay because
Eventually another piece comes along
It paints a colorful picture
Find your missing pieces
But embrace the ones you do have-
And the ones that do not fit
Are meant to be there to guide you to the right one
Life is like a puzzle,
You have to work at it
To accept and move on
It will all eventually come together

Devoid

All I wanted
Was you to hold me tight
Call me beautiful day and night
Smile that smile,
To intertwine the spaces of my fingers with yours
We fit...
I'm never gonna be yours again,
The one you want at the end of the day
To call beautiful and to hold tight
To fill empty spaces and say we fit perfectly
That we're meant to be together.
Fill the empty void that aches my heart, my body and my soul
Hear my solemn cries
Protect me from the world of devoid and evil
Every one leaves or I drive them away
My world or yours,
Is on shattered glass waiting to be stepped on again

Beast

A beast lives within me
It burns and thrashes about
Cries and shrieks
Its smile cuts into me like glass
Burning need
Calling out for more
Desire intensifies
Screams out for a single touch
Only she can soothe the beast
Over and over again

Hate. Anger. Love.

Hate. Anger. Love.

Thoughts seep into my lungs
Burns with flames of heartache
Crisps of tar covered blood
Pieces of knowledge,
Memories of her-are burnt
Knots of truth come untied;
Released without intent to hurt- to know
Burying love inside because you can't show it;
Is like keeping pent up anger in a bodily shell
Ripping apart all honesty
Every lie, every truth
Hate fuels my soul
It tugs and pulls and bites into my heart
Tears shed,
Angry at what she feels
Unable to comprehend
Wishing I could rip her apart: word for word
Every lie, every truth
She loves me, she doesn't
She's afraid to be alone, to lose it all
Desire to yell every single hate
Every thing I had done for her meant nothing
Every lie, every truth
I protected her from what she was afraid of
People hating and getting mad for the lie she told
That I let myself burn in the flame of decency
And force myself to step out of this shell
Anger seeps and burns
But love takes over
Memories of her eyes, her kiss and her warmth
Every lie has its sheath,
Every truth has its nakedness
Love triumphs all hate, all anger
Love pushes every evilness back into its shell
The love is right there, truth is she doesn't care
No Regrets.

The Ending,

She watches as I fall apart,
Blank stares,
She braces herself
Mask of disguise looking back
Silent screams make not a sound
Violent shakes as I grow weak
Gripping onto all that's left; nothing
She looks back one last time
Single tear shed from those exquisite eyes of hers
She turns and leaves her broken heart
No words will bring it all back
Never will those eyes look this way
She walked away and she's not looking back again
Left broken; to pick up the pieces she smashed
She just wanted to be truthful, she tried her hardest
It just wasn't enough-
I wasn't enough
She's gone: the ending.

Persistent

The truth comes out
Loss of words
Resisting the urge to fall apart
Biting lips, bleeding out
Uncontrollable laughing fits,
Sudden gasps of air
Struggling to breathe
Heart break is persistent
Slamming against my chest
Every fibre of my being, torn apart
Thoughts beat at my body,
Harder than anything physical ever could.
Truth hurts more than ever imagined
Shaken body, slow tears begin to roll
Violent sobs take over
Crashing and burning bridges
Set in stone- it's over
Wrapping arms around knees,
Blood dripping from the lips
Tear stained cheeks,
Never again.

Flame

As the world turns,
Mine crashes and burns
Flame has turned to its' small flame
As the wick becomes shorter,
My breath grows fainter
The wear of heart ache
Appears in my face
Time stands unmoving,
While my heart beats on;
From fast to slow and back again,
To barely beating at all
Pulsing and bleeding hearts,
People move on whilst I am stuck
Sadness in disguise is exhausting,
Wear on my body and my soul
Is pulling me down
In order to get a pulse,
It is time for a jump start
Find the eternal flame,
And learn to breathe
For the moment,
Time is standing as the world turns,
The flame will soon extinguish
But my love, never will.

Her.

She's a rose
Breathes and blooms
Bleeds red and true
Fooled by attraction-
Pricked when touched
Full of desire and lust
Never stays alive
Each petal crumbles
Her love fades
She's a rose

Flashback

Head thrown back,
Eyes closed
Images and thoughts passes through
Intensity of emotion overwhelm
Shaken as I wept
Impact of her face-
Cause a loss of breath
Brings me down to my knees
My only weakness;
Her eyes.

Fast and slow to barely beating at all.

Head games,
Emotions overwhelm
Commit or not to commit,
To hold on or to let go
Living in a dream but reality hits harder
Euphoria turns into depression
Heart beats fast and slow to-
Almost barely beating at all
Always the first to begin;
And the last to end
It takes two, not one;
One person can't hold it all together
Full of everything to barely anything at all
Giving up hope,
Releasing all expectations and freeing the disappointments;
Shielding my heart
But still holding on-
For as long as you want me.

Second first kiss

Awkward silence fill the room
Graceless movements and shuffles
Nervous giggles and sweaty palms
Shifty glances and cheeks blush
Side by side,
Accidental touches by hand
Temperature rises
Hormones rushes
Adrenaline overpowers
Lips touch, hands slide up the back
Heart beats fast as-
Blood pounds through the veins
Thirst for more intensifies
Lips hardened then parts
Broken embrace
Sighs of euphoria;
Elated

Renewed

Grass wet with dew,
Clouds roll over the lambent moon
A sky luminous with stars,
Fresh tears wept cool,
Along with childish dreams
Visions of the future,
Brings one to a loss of words
Dreams grow anew,
The wind sings a calming tune;
Perfect tears to a new beginning,
Renewed.

Crash into me

Pick me up,
Bring me down,
Throw me around.
Do anything,
Say anything,
As long as it's something.
I live off you,
I live to feel you around me.
Hang on baby,
Crash into me real hard.
Pick me up,
Bring me down,
Throw me around.
Do anything,
Say anything,
As long as it's something.

My head is like clock work, Tick Tock

I'm angry and I'm sad.
I want to throw out my phone,
But I'd just get it back
Cause I'd go crazy wondering
If you even bothered to answer
Each second that goes by,
My head is like clock work,
Tick, tock.
Can't stop thinking,
I begin to wonder,
If you even care.
If you even want to talk.
I need to be reassured,
But when you don't answer,
I just chuck the phone.
Feigning that I don't even care.
But baby, you know it's killing me.
You've got me strung out.
Why won't you answer..
Why make me wait?
Can't stop thinking,
My head is like Clock work,
Tick Tock.

Broken Record

Let down after let down
Just put us on replay.
It's the same old song and dance,
Like a broken record-
You skip.
How to deal?
How much more?
Give me an answer.
I want to be yours.

Prove it

She once said I meant everything,
Is that even true anymore?
Would she even care,
If I bled out for her?
What does it take,
To get her to notice,
To feel, to remember?
How do I get her
To forget the other girl?
I wish I was still the one.
What does it take?
Do I have to go to the lengths of extreme?
Would she wake up,
If I disappeared
Would she even shed a tear?
Running didn't work.
If that didn't,
What will?
Did she even hurt?
Prove it to me.
I'd do anything,
Make me feel you.
Right now you're not even real
Make me feel something,
Anything but this hurt.
I'd give for one more day.
Hold my hand,
Don't let me go...
Prove to me you care.
Be at my side.
Whatever it takes.
Just be there.
Prove to me you're real,
Not that we were just a dream.
I don't wanna wake up and you're not there.
Do anything...
Prove to me that I meant something.

Anything

Spill my heart out,
Take me down.
Do anything,
Take the pain away.
Just don't let me crash and burn

One look, Two tries, Three words.

You have me all wrapped up
In your fingers
One look. Two tries. Three words.
Is all it takes.
Just say the words
That I want to hear.
You know that I,
I would give in.
One look. Two tries. Three words.
Is all it takes.
I'd walk away,
But chances are I'd just come back.
The things you do,
May tear me apart
But I'd do it all over again.
Trying to understand,
Wishing you'd show that you cared.
One look. Two tries. Three words.
Baby, just give me it.
I know you would walk away,
Because you already have.
Tear me apart.
Just tear me apart.
One look. Two tries. Three words.
Say them.
I'd melt in your hands
Play me like a puppet,
I'd fall for you.
Tear me apart.
Go ahead and tear me apart.
One look. Two tries. Three words.
You've got me hung.
Just another love story
Where I'm the one
Left holding on.
Only, this time
I can't let go
One look. Two tries. Three words.
Baby, you've got me
Wrapped all around your fingers.
Just say the words,
Pull the strings.
I'm all yours.
One look. Two tries. Three words.
Is all it takes.

Three Thousand Miles

Three thousand miles,
That I would walk (for you)
Along the way,
I wonder if I'd find what was lost
If maybe you would somehow realize,
I was the one
The one you let walk away (away)
The night is cold,
I can't get out of this.
It's only increasing as I walk.
I could burst...
Three thousand miles,
That I would walk (for you)
Baby, you wouldn't even take a step
I'd go the distance (there and back)
Don't say you tried
You were the taker, I was the giver
That's the way its always been with us
I held onto nothing.
Three thousand miles,
That I would walk (for you)
It wouldn't have made a difference.
You would still be like this
You don't even care (don't even care)
Three thousand miles,
That I would walk (for you)
Just a waste of time,
But maybe it would be enough
To prove to you, I was the one you lost
Maybe you wouldn't care,
But I'd try
Maybe somehow along the way,
I'd find myself
Three thousand miles,
That I would walk (for myself)

You don't care

You don't care.
You don't notice.
Baby, don't even shed a tear.
I'm not worth it,
If I was, you would still be here.
Fuck it all.
Baby, you don't care,
So don't say you do.
She's the only one on your mind.
You plaster it every where-
Without thinking of me.
It's a slap in the face,
Showin me how stupid I was-
To not see what my shroud of disgrace
It's whatever baby.
You don't care. (no, no)
Don't even think about it
You don't care.

Depression/ Anger

Anger
Panic attacks
Vicious shakes
Trouble breathing
Scary thoughts
Popping pills
Attempted Suicide
Broken hearted
Results: Xannax
Zombie

Lifeless

Lifeless
an aura that disappears,
when nothing's there as you look into her eyes.
Her feelings are numb,
She becomes a zombie.
Broken.

Stupidity is the truth of a broken heart

Stupid:
To hold on to nothing
Blind heart to who you really are
Pretending she meant nothing
That I actually meant something
To feel so angry
To fade away in your memory
To let you go.
-Stupidity is the truth of a broken heart

Crimson Romance: Blood on your hands

I'm so angry!
So sick of this..
I hate the pain that's increasing each day.
I want to be so mad at you,
So upset and to scream.
I want to hate you,
I want you to hurt-
Over me, not her.
I wish you saw me.
I'm growing weaker,
I'm dying inside because
all I want to do is sleep.
It numbs the pain.
But I also want to punch things,
To kick and to scream.
To hold you and tell you I love you
and for you to do it back...
But you never fucking will, will you?
She's what you want..
I'm just yesterday's trash.
I sit here, crying my eyes out..
Pounding the keys,
I can't take this anymore...
Just bleed me out, let me go.
Take me back to where I was happy.
Crimson romance,
Blood on your hands.

Am I nothing to you?

Afraid
Of being nothing
Lost without you
Afraid of being meant nothing
Our relationship
Is something I'll never forget-
You are the one I wish I still have
The happiest I've ever been
Was with you
Now that it's gone (you're gone)
I don't know what to do
I'm afraid I'm lost
That I've lost you
Of our short time,
I'm afraid I meant nothing
When to me,
You meant the whole world
I was just something you strung along,
Because you were afraid-
Of being alone.
You explored your options,
I locked mine.
I fell in love-
You did not (at least not completely)
And so, these words fall on deaf ears (not mine)
I'll press my ear to the wall,
Hoping you will say that you were wrong.
Afraid that it'll never come.
You will find your way
But I will stay lost.
You lingered while it was dead to you,
Without realizing that it will leave me holding on.
I'm heart broken over you,
You're heart broken over someone else
What about me? What about us?
Wishing I could scream,
Why do you care so much?!
What about me? What about us?
Was I nothing?
I'm afraid,
I have lost you, lost us.
Afraid that I wasted my heart on you,
But I'd never regret it (I'd do it again)
I love you
Even when knowing your statuses are about her-
Crushing my heart, knowing it's not me you're torn over.
I ran away,
You didn't care.
You're upset because she's not noticing you, that she doesn't care-
I'm right in front of your face!
But what about me? What about us?
Am I really that invisible now?
I was once the girl you noticed, the girl you wanted
Now I'm nothing.
I'm right there, pouring my heart out to you
But you couldn't care less now-
Not like you used to,
You say you changed (you moved on before we were over)
Throwing away us may have been the worst thing you've ever done.
You had someone who loved you, who would do anything for you
But what was I to you (what am I?)
I want to be yours
I miss you but I don't think you miss me-
Not really
She's got your heart now,
Even though she's not even there.
I'm not enough, no matter how much I tried.
I was the giver, you were the taker.
I gave you my all, you took my heart
What was I?
Am I nothing now?
Do I even exist to you-
Not just as a friend or a best friend..
But as a girlfriend (do I exist?)
Am I invisible?
What do I need to do, to get you to wake up?
I've done things I'd never have imagined doing
I did them for you.
So tell me, am I nothing?

Last week's zombie, this week's corpse

Tears shed
Hours on end.
Numbness appears,
Rationality disappears.
Heart breaks,
My whole body aches-
For her touch.
Rush of thoughts,
Emotions overwhelm.
Breaking down,
My feelings drown.
Trying to break through,
Fighting for air-
She's the one who's holding me down.
Trying to talk,
Nothing comes out.
Last week's zombie,
This week's corpse.
Forever her's.

Speechless

Unable to write,
Broken-
At loss for words,
Yours.

She's

She sits, She stands.
She laughs, She cries.
She's happy, She's sad.
She's enough, She's useless.
She's the world, She's lower than dirt.
She's yours, She's no one's.
She's in love, She's broken.
She's striving, She's failing.
She's strong, She's weak.
She's emotional, She's numb.
She's calm, She's a train wreck.
She's beautiful, She's ugly.
She's loved, She's hated.
She's whatever baby.

Some day he will come (For my best friend <3 )

She cries.
Hates the word boyfriend/ girlfriend.
People hand-in-hand,
She wants it to be his in her's.
Interlaced-
The sweet embrace.
Heart breaking as she walks,
Whispering "I love you,"
As he walks away.
Knowing that he knows,
But he hasn't said a word.
Holding onto faith that-
Someday it will come,
He's her Prince Charming.
All she can do is wait,
Find all the words-
And put them into song.
Someday he will hear,
He will come.

Dying inside.

She sits on the counter,
Looks at herself in the mirror.
Only these eyes see the pain in her reflection.
Down the road not across.
Her life is hanging in your hands.
She holds on just for three simple words,
She wants to be yours.

Be Human

Get inspired or get depressed,
Fall in love or fall in hate,
Be optimistic or be pessimistic,
Be loud or be silent,
Laugh your hearts out, or cry your eyes out,
Be seductive or be laid back,
Dance in the crowd or sit in the corner,
Be the center of attention or be invisible,
Be aggressive or be passive,
Speak the truth or lie and cheat,
Be yourself or be a faker,
Live life to the fullest or let it go to waste,
Whatever the purpose, embrace life.

Oral Presentations

Millions of eyes,
Staring.
Reading line after line,
Stopping to find your place.
Sweat begin to form,
Nausea arouses.
Stuttering.
Yawns of boredom,
Snickers of mockery.
Sigh when the final line is finished.
Oral Presentations.