Life-----

Bleak, dreading
Wake up calls at 4 AM
Nobody cares
You fend for yourself
Stuck in place like glue,
Yet shattered across
Never mended- a broken heart
All smiles, all fake
Everyone lies-
Including me
Searching for something
Reasons to live for
Time never stops
The world keeps moving as if you don't exist
Nothing changes-
One life is meaningless to another person
But to some, you are the world
Holding hands help you feel not alone
We are all alone
But life is what you make it
You do what you can to survive,
So live life, laugh your heart out, love the ones you're with.

Swallow

Three A.M. blinks on the clock
I lay staring at the crack above my head
The branch taps on my window
As the rain patters on the roof
I pull on my coat for a walk
I knew I couldn't leave my thoughts unsaid
I headed to the park to settle my mind
The swift feel of the swings allows my body to relax
I knew I needed to talk
I felt like I was in over my head
I have to leave the past behind
The rain continued to splatter down my face
As the tears came one by one
The idle swinging slowly reached to a stop
A shiver run up my spine
There's no feeling that can replace the embrace
Sometimes it takes a thousand tries to finally have won
But secrets always creep out
No matter how hard you try
Truth always finds a way
A silhouette stands by the side
Only a memory can define the shadow that awaits
They have come out to play
I wait for the darkness to swallow me whole
The swings begin to swing alone
Leaves dance at my feet
One last look at the moon
And I'm blanketed with the dark for eternity.

What goes around, comes around

Every morning is a new day
But for me today the sky is grey
Everything keeps going wrong
The day seems to run too long
Anger sets in my chest
Every minute is a minute I detest
My heart pounds intemperately
Trying to piece my head and emotions separately
Reaching to the point of no gain
Fighting to find words to explain
Only tears can tell how I'm feeling
There's no way to tell you how I'm dealing
Frustration only seems to show
Time keeps on going by slow
When will the mess end
This stupid thing is hard to comprehend
Sometimes a fake smile is better than none
But the truth weighs a ton
Mind heavy with endless thoughts
But for you, this is a big fuck you
Mess with me, the flame only gets higher
You're just a stupid little liar
My anger is only the tip
Just wait until you get the whiplash
You stupid bitch, I hate you.

Today

Today-
I don't think I'll care
Think I'll let you stare
Hear you scream my name
I'll just take all the blame
I keep listening to you swear
While bits of me continue to tear
I'm the mirror to the one you compare
The feelings you've brought upon me are unfair
I fight to keep a straight face
I'm not easy to replace
I get weak in the knees
All because you're a tease
My stomach gets into knots
I pick love-me-nots
I get slammed by my heart
I've let you take it apart
No,today I don't think I'll care
But I'll make you aware
That I don't need you like I need air
I don't care.

♥

I'm holding it together but baby I'm coming undone
My world broke apart and came together all at once
The pieces holding me together has you written all over
I'll love you forever ♥ .

Dream

I trace the messy, uneven lines that scarred my arms
I didn't care
Inside my body screams, fighting against me
Why had I given the last shred of sanity away
I felt nothing but emptiness and longing
Terrified my world will soon fall apart
Feels like you've walked away
The little voice in my head beckons
My feelings morph into something dark
My hand reaches out
Expecting to release some unbearable pain
To scribble some more hate
I feel a hand instead
Not cold, not hard, something real
You are there; holding my wrists
I break, I fall apart
I cry for what seems like hours but only minutes
Reality sets in
You're not really here...
But you saved me anyways
Everything hits hard against the wall I've put up
Depression seeps through
But I'll fight, we'll fight
You're my everything,
I'm never letting go.

Tell the tale

Put the drink down
And tell the tale of your bleeding heart
Let the words musically flow
Along with the tears full of woe
Never thought the world would break apart
Listen to the words sweetly drown
Bring out your biggest fears
Cry out every single ache
Yell out all the hate
Set all your facts straight
These are your mistakes to make
Nothing seems as it appears
Take the steps you're determined to take
Live every breath as if it's your last
Walk and leave everything in the past
Life is yours to make
Now you'll finally be awake
Once you've realized your heart has dropped
True love has your pain stopped
Under your feet, the world has begun to shake.