Mirrored

Each movement mirrored
Side way glance cloud my judgment
Every word is a statement;
Every emotion overwhelm
Constant waves of pain
Washes over me swiftly again and again
I tell you this confidently
This isn't who I am
I'm nothing compared to them;
Extreme highs and extreme lows
That's the way the wind blows,
The creek ripples and that's the way the world goes
Everything is always mirrored,
Shown in the past and future, set on replay
Mirrored.

Incapable

Something within consumes me
Burns and screams out silent cries
Torn apart from limbs to thoughts
Words cuts and bleeds through
Hatred run through my veins
Warping my thoughts into overdrive
Panic attacks come frequently
Unable to hold back
One of these days it'll overcome
I'll fall into the void you've left me in
My hands are tied,
Incapable of freeing, incapable of change
Stuck in this mindless stature
Ripping away at every other emotion I've got
Until nothing's left
I'll begin to rip everyone else apart
All that's left of my sanity
Has deteriorated into this-
Cold and sociopathic.
Unsaveable.

Don't.

I thought I knew you.
I thought I knew the truth
Used to be able to tell when you lie
Knew when you weren't okay and about to cry
Thoughts of your smiles and the way you looked
Nothing left but broken piles of memories
Never thought I'd see the day where I just don't care
Truth is, you took all that I had to bare
You say you know me
But you really don't even know me at all
You've finally got what you wanted
I don't want to love you
I don't care at all.

Never ending cycle

Hidden feelings
Agonizing heart aches as she walks by
One glance, no looking back
Put the past in the past
Shed a single tear
But it does not matter
I'd walk away from this if I could
Never experience the love she gave
Or the heartache as she ripped away
But yet here I stand
Unable to truly tear myself away
But I do it for another day
The cycle repeats tomorrow,
Never ending.

My heart's got a memory

My heart's got a memory
Splattered all over pages
Crooked smiles and love in the eyes of yours
Pounding down on the pavement
You want me gone
But my heart's there to stay
I could dwell on what's been done
Let the rain drown me
But even then my heart's still got a memory
I'd be gone because you want me to be
But I'm still dreaming
I can see your face in my reflection
I go to touch it
But you're gone...
My heart's got a memory
I'm on the road to no where in particular
I may be gone
But even then my heart's still got a memory
My heart's got a memory...

full moon

Full moon's out tonight
I'm so senseless
Relentless.
I've lost my nerve
Over confidence
Nothing's gonna get me tonight
Feel your breath on my neck
Reach for the bite
But then I turn to run
Losing sense of gravity
So breathless
Must be the moon tonight
Gotta be careless
But there's something
Something about you that makes it alright
Forget the escape
Embrace
I've lost all sense of reality
But its okay,
Its the moon tonight

Lonely

With the way the wind blows,
Veiny fingers stretch toward the sky
Water ripples in circlets
Air crisp with the taste of rain
A lone path foreshadows your future
Breathe a sigh of lonely.