my life.. without you.

Laying here wide awake
Knowing I'll be awake for hours on end
Realizing that the one thing on my mind
Is never going to come true again.
I wonder if you ever lie awake and think the same thing
I roll over and tears begin to shed
This is nothing new, this is my life now.
Without you.
Ill manage to squeak out a whisper...
"I miss you"
Its never going to change
You're never going to be mine again

Truth begins to deceive

I try to stand strong
When the truth begins to deceive
There's nothing left to believe
There's nowhere left to belong
My destination's still unknown
I'm trying to move on
My life has been drawn
But now I'm all alone
I'm meant to walk these streets alone
But my forever has become unknown
The pain keeps holding on
It's time to let go
I try to stand strong
When the truth begins to deceive
There's nothing left to believe

In truth or lies

My forever turned out to be a lie
My love was all that she could deny
The dreams we shared shattered
She was the only one who mattered
She would have been the one I lived or died for
I would have given my forever to her
Searching for the real meaning
Realizing that she was my ending
To live in truth or in a lie
My heart, I cannot rely
For my forever turned out to be a lie.

Tainted

My heart is tainted
Rage consumed me
Hate is the only thing acquainted
All that's left of me to be
Feeling the hollow void
Hatred strengthens
Every happy thought destroyed
The intensity of pain lengthens
Jealousy devours the heart
Vulnerable and full of weakness
The desire to tear apart
Full of her deceptiveness
Realizing truths and dreams will never meet
My curtain has closed
On the last thing that ever made me complete
The truth of her heart came exposed
Turned her back on love
No more sunrises for me
Wishing it was her I was free of
Sunsets sigh my relief of the end of another day
The darkness is my only friend

I hate you

I hate you,
Point blank, the answer's simple
Once upon a time I loved you
Thought you were the sun in my darkness
The flame of her hair caught my attraction
To her, my love seemed inferior
Never enough, always wanting more
You are the shadow that follows my every move
Every thought and every breath
Every memory of the brushes of her lips
Reminds me of how I'm nothing to her
Not even a thought wasted
No more sunrises
Anger flames inside
You love her
I hate you.

i should have known better

When you said forever and ever
I should have known better
Why aren't you here
I'm all alone
Forever means nothing now
Lost my faith in faerie-tales
No happy ever after
your forever seems so long ago
I should have known better
Why did I allow myself to fall
Forever means nothing
I'm so alone...
I should have known all along
That your forever was bound to end
I should have known better
Then maybe I wouldn't be such a mess..

Through.

The feeling of love is replaced
Left with pure hate and regret
Out of everything I've ever faced
I wish it's you I could forget
Wishing I meant something to you
Left with nothing but thoughts
I'm finally through with you
Set you free and finally see
For who you are
Today, I shall begin to finally feel
Escaping the firm grasps of your manipulation
I'm through with you.