Paralyzed

Watch the rain trinkle down
Look beyond the glass
The wind whispers to your ears
Singing the silent song that nobody hears
Reaching out, palm hand upright
In that moment the world disappears
Electric spasms from touch
Your body screams but you don't let go
Your eyes locked
Staring at something so beautiful
Something's calling your name
You turn to look but you can't move
Paralyzed-
You realize the scent that surround you
The sound changes to a sweet laughter
You see eyes full of smiles
You decide to leave the world behind
Because what's in front of your eyes
Is the only thing that matters;
She's your tears, your laughter
She's your heart.

indestructible

I hide behind masks of concealed disguises
My insecurities bring out the worst in me
I don't want to envy you
You're a dream maker -
But I don't wanna find out all the games you wanna play
You're full of mind games with a one track mind
I'll take my own sweet time
But I'll let you get the best of me,
Cause there's nothing else that I do well
She walks in and I slipped up -
My knees get weak
But I say that's just the nerves
But the truth is I've never fallen so hard
It terrifies me but you've got me smiling
I never wanna get up but you've knocked down my walls
This right here is where I belong - with you

To Live is to Die

To those who said, 'To live is to die'
Not one living thing has escaped its death
Whether to die peacefully or in terror
One must choose to either release the fear
Or to live in fear of something you cannot change
Some rejoice religiously, some might believe in out-worldly things
Or some might believe there's nothing there at all
Why are we born to suffer, to love, to experience
Why do we have to deal with losses to the reaper
We fight to live, but some fight to die
Some live long lives, some only live for weeks at a time
How do you choose, how do we deal
Panic attacks arise when thoughts of not existing
But what if-
What if we are okay?
What if we're not ?
We will never know...
It terrifies me
Thoughts of being buried or burned...
Or trapped screaming inside of a coma of which you will never wake
How do we know?
Some wish for immortality because they too are scared
Some think their lives are worthless
But why, why do we live to die?
Do we become stars amongst the rest of the glowing ones
Or do we float above our families and loved ones?
Do we have new lives?
Maybe we are where we choose to be
I wonder.. if we become happier
But it terrifies me
To leave you, to leave everyone
To have you leave me
It's not like I chose to live in fear
But I'm terrified of not existing
of being alone...
'To live is to die'
The only answer we have is to live life the best we can...
But I'm afraid of the unknown.

Life-----

Bleak, dreading
Wake up calls at 4 AM
Nobody cares
You fend for yourself
Stuck in place like glue,
Yet shattered across
Never mended- a broken heart
All smiles, all fake
Everyone lies-
Including me
Searching for something
Reasons to live for
Time never stops
The world keeps moving as if you don't exist
Nothing changes-
One life is meaningless to another person
But to some, you are the world
Holding hands help you feel not alone
We are all alone
But life is what you make it
You do what you can to survive,
So live life, laugh your heart out, love the ones you're with.

Swallow

Three A.M. blinks on the clock
I lay staring at the crack above my head
The branch taps on my window
As the rain patters on the roof
I pull on my coat for a walk
I knew I couldn't leave my thoughts unsaid
I headed to the park to settle my mind
The swift feel of the swings allows my body to relax
I knew I needed to talk
I felt like I was in over my head
I have to leave the past behind
The rain continued to splatter down my face
As the tears came one by one
The idle swinging slowly reached to a stop
A shiver run up my spine
There's no feeling that can replace the embrace
Sometimes it takes a thousand tries to finally have won
But secrets always creep out
No matter how hard you try
Truth always finds a way
A silhouette stands by the side
Only a memory can define the shadow that awaits
They have come out to play
I wait for the darkness to swallow me whole
The swings begin to swing alone
Leaves dance at my feet
One last look at the moon
And I'm blanketed with the dark for eternity.

What goes around, comes around

Every morning is a new day
But for me today the sky is grey
Everything keeps going wrong
The day seems to run too long
Anger sets in my chest
Every minute is a minute I detest
My heart pounds intemperately
Trying to piece my head and emotions separately
Reaching to the point of no gain
Fighting to find words to explain
Only tears can tell how I'm feeling
There's no way to tell you how I'm dealing
Frustration only seems to show
Time keeps on going by slow
When will the mess end
This stupid thing is hard to comprehend
Sometimes a fake smile is better than none
But the truth weighs a ton
Mind heavy with endless thoughts
But for you, this is a big fuck you
Mess with me, the flame only gets higher
You're just a stupid little liar
My anger is only the tip
Just wait until you get the whiplash
You stupid bitch, I hate you.

Today

Today-
I don't think I'll care
Think I'll let you stare
Hear you scream my name
I'll just take all the blame
I keep listening to you swear
While bits of me continue to tear
I'm the mirror to the one you compare
The feelings you've brought upon me are unfair
I fight to keep a straight face
I'm not easy to replace
I get weak in the knees
All because you're a tease
My stomach gets into knots
I pick love-me-nots
I get slammed by my heart
I've let you take it apart
No,today I don't think I'll care
But I'll make you aware
That I don't need you like I need air
I don't care.