Beauty unconcealed

All along have I known
The truth hidden in your words
But lies now expose to what is really shown
The truth is often unheard
Lies form parts of truth
Paths intertwined of hate
Beauty shed in its' own true glory
To this, we all relate
We grasp onto what we can hold
Let go of what we can live without
Of everyone but ourselves
Truth itself is beauty,
But unconcealed by the ugliness of lies.

Best friends

Best friends.
Capable of reading and knowing how and why they're feeling a certain way
Always wanting to keep them laughing
Eyes tell secrets that no one else can understand
Their hands always fit in yours when you need them the most
When heart break happens,
They're there with movies and words of encouragement
And their silly insiders of "turds" and "Pink Birdy's"
Being completely yourself around
Capable of falling asleep curled up beside them
Without worries of the occasional nightmares
They're there to hand you your drinks
And make fun of every mistake you do
They cry along with you when you're hurt
A best friend isn't a title,
It's a promise.

Existence

Time shifted-
I'm here and you're there
All that was left between had drifted
Nothing could break the tension that's left in the air
Silent words scream from my heart to yours
Yet, a response is never returned
I could have screamed and begged,
But words wouldn't have been heard
Nothing changes in the end
One thing in reality that I cannot escape or pretend,
We don't exist.

Widow's Walk

She stands
The salty air kisses her lips
As it whips through her hair,
She closes her eyes
And tilts her chin upward toward the sky
The sound of waves crashing; thunders in her ears
Splashes of icy rain drops pierce her face
Mixed with warm tears- they drip down the nape of her neck
She shivers,
Awaiting at widow's walk
She's forever alone,
At one with the world
She jumps.

Stasis

I wake up
Vast full of emptiness
And all I've got to show for it is a tear stained face
Don't tell me I never did try
You don't even know how hard it is
Scream at me- What do you want from me?
I lay in stasis,
Wishing I could be the apathetic bitch that you see me as
Spiraling into a gyre
Straight into rock bottom,
In my hand holds shattered glass
In the poor comparison that is my heart,
A pool of blood begin to form
Slipping into a state of memories,
I lay in stasis for you
No chance of escape,
No chance of return,
I lay in stasis.

Tempo

I sit here trying to capture the moment passed
I grasp onto any excuse I can
To keep you in my head
Every thought I have
I should push out but I cannot let go
Every time that we talk
My heart dance to a beat of its own
Every little thing disappears
The tempo increases just for a moment
The skies turn blue and I'm finally capable of breathing
The air- never sweeter, is delicious with you around
But I run out of time and it's hard to get through
I want to tell you the truth,
The truth about what you mean to me
It's all behind closed doors
Waiting to be all yours
Flat-lining until you resuscitate me
From my heart to yours,
The tempo shall increase when you're around
Spiking every so often as long as we talk
My heart survives because of you.

The Truth

I've come to realize that I'm not okay
I've come to realize that you can't handle my honesty
I've come to realize that I'm tangled up in someone that I can't let go
I've come to realize that I'm falling for you
I've come to realize that I'm not at all emotionally stable
I've come to realize that I have panic attacks daily
I've come to realize that I can't handle too much emotions at once
I've come to realize that I don't have as much patience as I used to
I've come to realize that I tend to flirt with so many people without meaning to
I've come to realize that I'm still broken but mending
I've come to realize that I'd do anything for my friends
I've come to realize that I cannot lie
I've come to realize that I have trust issues
I've come to realize that I let people walk over me because I don't want them upset
I've come to realize that I need to change and accept who I am
I've come to realize that I need myself.