The Truth

I've come to realize that I'm not okay
I've come to realize that you can't handle my honesty
I've come to realize that I'm tangled up in someone that I can't let go
I've come to realize that I'm falling for you
I've come to realize that I'm not at all emotionally stable
I've come to realize that I have panic attacks daily
I've come to realize that I can't handle too much emotions at once
I've come to realize that I don't have as much patience as I used to
I've come to realize that I tend to flirt with so many people without meaning to
I've come to realize that I'm still broken but mending
I've come to realize that I'd do anything for my friends
I've come to realize that I cannot lie
I've come to realize that I have trust issues
I've come to realize that I let people walk over me because I don't want them upset
I've come to realize that I need to change and accept who I am
I've come to realize that I need myself.

Yours.

My last words would be all yours,
Kept sealed with the wind
& forever unheard.

Conflicted

So much confusion
Not enough words to describe
Just how much I feel inside
All your feelings are such illusions
All logic disappears
I'm full of despair
Wishing there was something left to spare
And all I'm left with are tears
There's too much to deal
Bursts of love and hatred
All my feelings you've desecrated
There's too much to feel that's real
By all pain you've inflicted,
My heart's conflicted.

I hate you

You say you care
Wanna call me baby all the time
But in my mind you constantly compare
Making it sound as if anything I do is such a crime
You make me so fucking mad
All the stupid things you say and do
How much more stress will you add
I'm so done with you
I'm tired of you always being so fucking mad
Screaming and making me do what you want
All you do is make me sad
With your words, you constantly taunt
All you ever want me to be is miserable
Because it makes you happy knowing I'm not
Knowing that I'm where you want me to be
Makes you feel happy and free
I'm not your ball and chain
I fucking hate you.

Close this door

I've seen this all before,
You want nothing more
It's time I closed this door.

I've heard this all before,
This time I'm leaving you
Begging on the floor.

You've said it all,
Said that you'd call.
Just put down the phone,
And left me all alone.
(All alone)

You've got your girls,
I bet they dance for you in twirls.
Bet you wouldn't notice if I was gone,
Just keep going on and doing what you do.
(Doing what you do)

Cause I, Cause I, Cause I've..

I've seen this all before,
You want nothing more
It's time I closed this door.

I've heard this all before,
This time I'm leaving you
Begging on the floor.

I'm gonna act as if I don't care
Gonna go somewhere, I don't know where
Somehow I'm gonna get there
(Gonna get there)

Leave you wondering why,
You've got me on some kind of high.
Got you begging me for more,
Should have thought of that before.
(Thought of that before)

Cause I, Cause I, Cause I've..

I've seen this all before,
You want nothing more
It's time I closed this door.

I've heard this all before,
This time I'm leaving you
Begging on the floor.

Let go

I keep on telling myself I'll be okay
But my heart tells me otherwise
All the tears that may fall,
At least I know I've given my all
Countless times have known of my continuous pleas
I've tried to stand on my own two feet
But that's as far I've ever gotten
Accomplishments or not,
It may have all been time and effort wasted
Although society is faltering,
But so am I, and so are you
I've given out so many chances
And ask for some in return
But I've learned you onlu live once,
So one chance or none at all,
You're all I've got
My only chance at happiness;
I've got to let go.

Astonish

Step back and take a look at the world as a whole
Full of nature and beauty in its own entirety
Never mind how the human race has dug its hole
A breach in its own society
It once was a full force of naturalism
Without its corporate and capitalist world
Within religion, the world retaliates into antagonism
Society is faltering on its own newborn legs
Incapable of rising to morals and beliefs
They suffer from greed, selfishness and drown in hate
Every generation's contribution to the world only lessens briefly
Fighting over whether the war's right or wrong, or if being gay is such sin
Would it all matter once one reaches heaven's gates
All the hate and immoralities that one achieved,
Would the day come where we'd all be relieved
Away from the center of manipulations and destruction
Would we ever return to the simplistic world that was once ideal
Escape the reality of success and seduction
We'd circle the world to find what's real
Then somehow the world will eventually heal
Spirituality replaces religious traits
Is this what have become of our fate
Between what's right and what's wrong,
Does it matter to where it ends down to the line
The world's not ours to take
We're left to grasp our reality and intertwine
Force ourselves to wake
See the world
See the world for what its become and what it once was
Our fate is what we make
We are who we made ourselves
We've only got to submit
To reality we've succumbed,
The only true sacrifice was our soul