Lies You Spew

I'm a drama queen,
I'm a mess
But not that you should care
Doesn't surprise me
Why should it cause I don't care
Used to it-
I could scream
I could cry
But it would fall on deafer ears than mine
Not that I care
Because I don't
Ill just laugh it all away
You think you're better than me
But I know better
I even know you're just a jerk
Another loser
Go cry to your mama
Cause I don't care
Your head full of lies
That your mouth spews
But honey, I don't care
Cause I know better

Mood Swings

I wish you would recognize
The girl I could be
Recognize the girl I am
Instead of fighting to be noticed
I don't stand out
Or have the independence I desire
I wish I could pull deep inside
Bring everything I've locked up
Just like pieces of broken glass
I'm strewn about
Nearly incapable of putting back together
Unable to release
I wanna let it go
Everything builds up
Let out a scream but you never notice
I wanna be important
At least shown it
Tearing apart, one by one
Frustrated
I don't want to care
Just tell me what it is
I can't handle this,
I can't handle being me.

Snow

White, fluffy
Falling from the sky
Stick your tongue out
Cold flakes melt
All over the ground
Trees heavily filled
Winter Wonderland

Harsh, angry winds
Zero visibility
Wrapped up tight
Cold, wet, exhausting
Slipping and falling
Piled high
Too surrounded
Ugly storm

Jumping, laughing
Sliding, throwing about
Playing games
Fluff in the air
Covered upon Soxy's nose
Barks of excitement
Come out and play!
Soxy's playground

Change

Its alright
Don't say a word
Ill tear myself apart
Listen to my silent screams
I'm thrashing inside
A battle I cannot win-
The battle within
I can't
Keep walking, keep pushing
Hold on
I can't let go
No escape
It wants to be free
Enraging beast
Tell it no more
I can't fight
Useless, full of ice
Searing flames scorch my icy veins
I cant-
I can't change.

(Jan 23)