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I don't have very many dreams or goals that most people have, some that are definitely unreachable, but worth striving for. Every now and then I write a story in my head or pen a poem down. The only way I know how to express myself through words is through my writing.

Tuesday, January 8, 2019

June 14th 2018

On the day you were born

Butterflies all around
Along with your kicks and rolls;
Mama hugged her round belly
Terrified but absolutely excited-
It wouldn't be long until we met
Daddy all gowned up and ready;
With his nerves shot-
But he held on strong for Mama
We walked into the room;
That you would soon be here
Mama cried on table-
While Daddy held on and soothed
The doctors draped up;
And soon had mama rocking
Within seconds...
Here you were!
The biggest and sweetest cry;
That we ever heard
Daddy and Mama instantly cried
They whisked you away-
To check you out
Perfect; you were,
They brought you back to us
We both fell in love with you-
And with each other even more
You amazed us in every way;
Tiniest little babe in Mama's arms
Wrapped your finger around Daddy's
With you; our family grew bigger
You are forever our baby-
We love you for always
On the day you were born.


June 14th 2018
5lbs 11 oz
17 3/4" long
Benjamin Jason James Innes

Friday, February 27, 2015

Manic Mode

 Irrational-
All these thoughts consume me
Overreacting;
I let my insecurities best me
High and low;
No middle ground-
I'm stuck in stasis
My chest constricts 
And my mind screams out loud;
Silence echoes round the room
My emotions shut down,
My face: unreadable 
Until the dam breaks-
One by one the tears roll down
My heart heavy;
And I'm shattered all over again
Your eyes alone-
Brings me back to reality
I'm easily lost amongst your kisses
All these dreams and all these fears
Wash away when I feel you near;
My heartbeat quickens
And my thoughts calm the waters
My face radiates a smile from ear-to-ear
Manic Mode.



Saturday, February 7, 2015

Justin

I fell for your thoughts,
And the way you said my name-
You make me feel amazing

I want to be inside your mind,
To hear every thought and desire-
All your fears and all your dreams

I want you,
To see the way you look at me-
And to feel the way I feel about you

My favorite moment with you,
Just lying still in bed-
Running my fingers along your back

I love the way you smile,
That silly smirk-
And the way I drive you crazy

I'm falling hard,
I want you-
Always.




Monday, January 19, 2015

Yours for the taking

I've been walking around; stumbling 
With my head in the clouds
For the longest time I've been crumbling,
And then there you were; 
Standing out in the crowds
All it took was one smile-
Before I began to fall
Made everything else worthwhile
You can be my wrecking ball;
Break me over and over
Tear down all the walls
You've won me over-
Baby, you can have it all;
You can have my heart and my body
But best of all you can have my mind-
I'm all yours for the taking.

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Darkest Day

My darkest day has come and past;
Pain will not continue to last
One by one the tears roll down;
Fighting constantly not to drown
Voices in my head persist to scream;
High or low- always extreme
I'm walking amongst a living hell;
Always being told not to dwell
But I'm fighting an internal battle;
It's more than I can handle
Upon my heart, there's all these scars;
All my dreams and all my fears
I have no idea where to begin;
Will this ever be a fight that I'll win?

Identity

Completely trapped-
Boiling inside
Agony, bloodcurdling screams
Shredded -
Endless knots;  unable to come apart
Pounding throughout my veins
Tearing my skin-
Anger,  disgust and hatred grip my thoughts
Wretching- my heart
Incapable of release;  save me!
Voices scream- no escape
Vines wrap my body,
Taking me for their own
Stripped-of my identity
Changes;  endlessly
Obstacles never overcome
No voice of reason
Just me, myself and I-
... an eternal battle

Belle

My pretty girl,
You've waked many a mile alongside me
Caught all the tears I shed;
Purred to let me know you were content
Your paw print is imprinted upon my heart
Special is what you are,
I'll never forget your scent;
The touch of your fur
Or the way you'd nudge your head
You've taken a piece of my heart-
Wherever you've gone,
Run wild and free
I still feel your soul;
For it's inside my heart.

I love you Belley-Boo ♡

12-05-14